The wallpaper on my phone is a road that is nothing special in Shibuya. If I hold my thumb down in my phone collection, it will really live for a few seconds and rewind time in this process. It shows that I wobbled in the position and took a photo: a giant crab clinging to a restaurant, a woman facing us with a white plastic bag around her arm, colorful signs stacked like Legos Jut out of gray, “The Body Shop” is far away because of course.
It has a great significance for me, this photo. It was the exact moment I was excited to shoot through my chest, a pain “I could not believe that I was back”. Later, the next morning, a push, in late awareness, certainly changed my brain chemistry. A wave, “I can finally disconnect and in many ways, I can reconnect.”
After seven years at Gamer Network (GN), the creation from my game has stopped. I think it is inevitable, actually, for many years offering instructions and placing my metaphor ruler on the final frames will cause damage. The time spent on the skull and bones last year certainly did not help.
And to be honest, I have seen a lot of people continue and the group changes and the company Ahem change Countless times. I remember what I called the golden age, where I said hello to the multi -talented gate guard (a lovely optimistic guy, who could grab you by two with him at the same time and told all the people he had buried.
I remember going to the local co-op and bought a meal agreement with Tom. I remember going to the meat bread and a buffalo buffer burger with juice for my hands to dye orange and smell light acid. I remember Agms where everyone knows each other. I remember discussing Love Island’s latest episode with James and Alice in the bright summer morning. I remember talking to Wanky coffee with Will. I remember looking at Jake’s shoulder when he played 6/10 meaningless. Annoy Hirun. Film with Dine. Listen to Joel’s explosive melody.
RPS was an old time and I would definitely mourn away for a long time. Writing for the site is a great thing, doing better by working with extremely talented people like all existing employees and former employees, a lot of great free working people and other GN heroes. A certain Donlan entrusted my first feature when I heard me famous when talking about PSI-ops: Mindgate’s conspiracy on the office. A John, who advised me when I first started in the industry. Alice Bee for her endless patience and intelligence. Liam, whom I remember sighing on YouTube. My Pod Pals Hayden and Imogen. Too many others. I have learned a lot about how to make words and help create videos and express myself in the way EDDERS thanks to all of them.
But in the end, I think I need to get out of my apartment and interact with real people in the day again. I have worked so long that I became a recluse goblin with a recurring back injury that I was desperate to shake. Recently, I have thought more about my mental and physical health and the trip to Japan in 2023. I yearn for the loss of the holiday, about the discovery and enriching my own parts that I have not been active or even not detected. Not that I couldn’t find writing about the completed game, I really did it! Even so, I saw that I was looking for the past more than me was the future here, and it was a sign I needed to bow before I was completely burned.
I don’t just want to – cower – challenge Myself, I want to reconnect to the games again and get that forgotten feeling, the nature of our work gradually. You know the moment: emerging from darkness to a vast world of rolling hills, a sparkling city in the distance lying on crystal water and swaying trees, and thinking, “Woah, I can really go anywhere.”
Anyway, that’s enough of this pampering. Thank you to all those who have liked my words and GN for 7 years (I think my favorite work I once wrote is about Gears and Badminton has more in common you think). Maybe in the future, you will see me turn on and write some words about tactical fps or yakuza 10, but now it’s time to rest and become a remote fan. Keep hydrated, see your posture, moisturizer, turn off the mouse and care!
